The Warrior Way

Is been a year since the last time I blogged. Even myself couldn't tell why I'm back suddenly, anywhere, let's make a mark!
Things happened around the year, can't be able to mention all of it here. Just leave some major turnaround and some minor for the recent.
Time flies, soul changed. Failed to pursuit own happiness at the same time walking into the dark day by day. Trying hard seeking the bright side. Once found, couldn't stay put, quickly eaten up by the darkness again. Contradiction getting deeper and deeper. Is 2012, aging through 25 years of living. Pressure came from nowhere like vaccum shell.
The other hand, I have beats in ear headset for myself, HTC sensation xe for your satisfaction and hopefully happiness.
Still in Chinese New Year, and this time, I'm more willing to keep myself alone or staying with family for reason. Hope it will be better next year. Reading all the time, and started investing again with commitment. Had a walk alone in the Mid Valley on 30/1/2012 all day, not my 1st but I believe it was my longest stay in the mall, but sadly I have difficulties to walk continuously this time, my bad knees stopping me as usual and it might be the worst this time plus the stiffness sole of my feets. I listened one of my friend advice of taking a foot massage, the idea popped up and I did, 1st time in mid valley thai massage, cost me RM59, but I have to tell it worth it, guess massaging my feet is no more luxury but a routine to myself. Hope this is just a joke.
For the year in between, I have learned what I'm not capable with, start setting myself and focusing on the goal, no longer a yongster who can wasting their bullet around trying to hit targets around.
For us, although nothing I can do to change your character. I'm hoping our relationship will last forever. More caring and concern like a grown up couple.
Lastly, I will fight to stay positive and for the brightness like a warrior.
Peace for the world and myself!

Turnaround

Let myself speak about my recent life. Assignments are queuing up one by one.Two tough paper around the corner.

The tough part was, I'm need to move out as soon as possible, with much of consideration, I sufferer through the process. Mostly because of the persistence of owning the advantage. Well, the good part is I realize that myself shouldn't be so stress because of problems. I treat this as a good part because I felt pressure whenever I stuck in an issue. Now at least is good for mentally and physically. Thanks to the book "Everything self-esteem". And the realization was just happened suddenly.

latest update: I found a new place, though still remain the same apartment, but I love staying there very much. (so far so good). Update again when everyone's here.

Yet, another disappointment was me not selected in to the our basketball team. After all the effort I put in the cut off still happen. Guess that this ain't my place. The sad part is when I start gaining confidence and improvement, I'd cut off by the coach. I wanted to talk to him at first, but after that I decided to gave up everything just like that. Yes, I quit the basketball team, for my own good. Though the experience will be with me forever.

Part 2 coming up soon, more things happened and ready to be shared.

Lastly, All the best to you in your exam. I believe you can make through! Stay tough!

In My Dream

Drive back to my own house together with girlfriend in smooth traffic all the way. If I'm going back alone, best that I have a driver to drive me home. Watch a quality movie with food that I love to eat before heading to bed.

Wake up naturally in the next day, and have a internet conference with my employees whom are loyal and respectful, ready to listen to my decision with humble feedbacks and advises.

Stay peaceful for all day long.....

Words I Like to Hear The Most.

1. Hey, you are improving.

2. I believe you could/can do better.

3. I/ We got you back.

4. Don't worry, you still have us/me.

5. You idea is very good.

6. Can you teach me to do that?

7. You are the best for doing this(professional knowledg).

9. Forget about the sad things happened on you, I love you.

10. Let's go have fun with us/me.

A Bumpy Life

Forgot the worst day, here goes the brighter day. The time I came back to my house, I got a couple of letters, which is the insurance claim, and is a lot more than I'd expected, and yes, me been through "poverty", it was tough, followed by a rebounding, I spent money on what I like, & longing, I upgraded my notebook ram, decorated it, and I got myself a wireless mice at last, it is cool with it looks. Another letter I've got is the letter from bonuslink, inside was the limited edition of BL card, I like it so much because it is limited, not plain blue but with greens. Special！ & I would like to define myself as a collector. My pupil dilated when I know stuff that are limited produced, words that I've learned from Mr. Jane.

Yet another exciting stuff is, I just tried to dive, more appropriate to use "jump", I jumped from 10 meter, of course into the water, finally I'd done it. 10 meter man! Is not that hard, not much struggling before it happen. Guess that I'm seeking fun for because of my boring life.

Yeah, just couple of small stuff, I'm happy & excited, same thing, because of dull life of mine recently.

And me started trying on derivatives, started to learn, cause it is extra profitable, super worth to learn it！

And I enjoy having a good housemate right now, but It will be around just another two weeks, will be alone again starting next year.

I misses my grandma sometimes...

Trying hard seeking the peace of my mind.

Glad to know you are good with your report came out...

The Worst Day In My Life..

4/12/10 11pm. I was f@@kin drunk, without any conscious, I collapsed. Left only a tiny consciousness, I knew I threw up when I was lying, on my own shirt， & not just once, I heard there was 3 times, not in a row. My shirt was took off, and left naked upper body sleeping on the floor of living room, that was embarrassing, I hate this happened on me, never want to mention it anymore, chivas, red wine, heiniken, man oh man, it was killing my image, It was like I had taken all the alcohols for the rest of my life in a day, enough for me, never forget the scene, one of my friend, took a pic of me at the time, my mind was thinking who the hell is this guy lying on the floor without shirt, looks like a beggar lying at the side of street. I hate that! With the smell of alcohol & vomit. Thank god he is good person, will never post this shit online, and i got luck people were busy cleaning the floor, & some were too f@@ked up to take pictures of me.Alright, done with this!

Calming myself, I being patient nowadays, trying not to hate people around me, forgive others = forgiving myself, hell yea, I don't want to suffer on people's weakness anymore, learning to praise more with more confidence. Listen & Listen & Listen...

I got my favourite mag, Slam Jordan! Never knew I will love it this much, Jordan the God! Embraving me alot, Thanks MJ, thanks Slam! It worth the money alot!!

One last thing, you can make thru this with me together, stay tough!!

Finally

Yeah, at last, I've been selected as part of the basketball team. This ain't easy, sacrificed my time and lots of tolerance. Without private transport, every training became tougher for myself. It required extra planning for my time, without it, I won't be attending each of every training, will be messed up, and will be quit consequently. Living as a group, we have to tolerate, here, our toleration will be tested again and again, the most deadly weakness in human especially man is their prestige, with the strong sense of human prestige, I can see people will be dying for that in the team, as I know prestige match with nature affability will be a perfect leader in anywhere. Every player trying to show their power, obey to only the strongest with higher power, if you observe carefully it happens everywhere. Meeting different kind of people also a way to test our maturity, some can match together easily, and just like that some will never ever been together as friends.The time I meet different personality, which means those do not have chemical to stick with each other at 1st, It was a shocker for me, the "wow" keep on appear in my mind, after hearing their conservation. Simple! Every person is weird to other, simple theory!
Because of the tournament, I got myself another basketball shoe, kinda luxury huh..First time in my life I owning two pairs of basketball shoes at a time. I've learned the importance of being confidence, persistence, dealing with different people and so many more.But anywhere, I need a rest from now.
One more thing, all the best in your exam, you can make it!!